Random Musing of Me

As I was leaving for the gym this morning, my dad told me a quote that he wanted me to think about (paraphrase, as I don't remember the exact quote)

" Love is more about what you give up, not what you keep."

This made me think - am I keeping things to close ? I mean, it kind of goes to the dying to yourself and becoming alive in Christ thing - Am I willing to give up everything and be made perfect in Christ's love? I'd like to think so, but I don't know. Even in my relationships am I not giving up what I should?

"I'm a fire, I'm a Flood, I'm a Revolution
I'm a war, already won..." - Revolution - Starfield

I love this song - it's an excellent song to make it at humanly loud as possible *and* it reminds me that even though I go through crap, God is always on my side especially when I rely on him and through him amazing things can happen.

Anyways, I should probably get ready to go to school... And then going to CP with Carl to pick up the new Chris Tomlin CD!

Black and White

I think that my "black and white" world is slowly (or quickly) cracking around me, causing a lot of unwanted angst. No longer is anything "good" or "bad" but those lovely shades of grey in between... So this causes much questioning and the need to re-evaluate many things and MUCH confusion.

I feel like I don't really know who I am or anything around me, for I still want to classify something as good or bad, yet there's always those mistakes or redeeming features, and this creates a lot of cognitive dissonance and anxiety...

I just feel like I don't know. And that scares me. Same with letting go.