Hrm. There is a weird mood in me at this moment. Thus, rambling.
I managed to work on my talk a bit more tonight - I like it considerably better than what I wrote yesterday. Hopefully I will get a chance to work on it tomorrow, but it seems to be quite a potentially busy day - Women in Engineering Day from 8:15 - 4, then going out to dinner with Ian and watching "The Iron Giant"... Perhaps in between something, for it would be good for me.

It's interesting for lately God has really been sending me the message that he will provide as long as I trust in him. I guess it's just the "scottish" in me that is always worried about how exactly everything will work, but it seems that God does have ways of providing me with things to that I don't have to worry. The trust is the hard part.
Something I REALLY want to work on (still) is listening. How do each of you listen to God and know that it's him as opposed to a random voice in your head?

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you’ll be with me

and you’ll never go

Stop breathing if

I don’t see you anymore

This is a bit from one of my favourite songs - "Far Away" by Nickelback. As I was listening to it today, it made me think - do I really ever take the time to show and tell people that I love them? I guess I'm afraid that I don't let my friends and family that I love them (in the agape sense) and that there is a .. mental "far away"-ness in many of my relationships. I realize that during the semester I wasn't exactly the most pleasant or available person and I am afraid that this could have made gaps in relationships larger.
I guess it's also the same with my relationship with God - I desperately want to be less "far away" but I really don't know how.

this is your life, are you who you want to be

this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be

I was listening to this Switchfoot CD my brother got me for my birthday (this song is "This is Your Life") as I was attempting to write my talk and as you guessed it, it caused me to think about where I am in my life. I know there are many things that I desperately want to improve and this made me think about such things... Sure, I'm pretty pleased with some things in my life but there is always room for improvement. I know that I'll never be perfect, yet I know that I am not who I want to be.

• I want to know God better
• I want to wake up on Sunday morning and be excited about church
• I want to learn to be pleased with what God has given me, so that I will have the confidence in myself to do things I normally wouldn't do
• I want to be able to be able to actually help people and feel that I have accomplished something not for personal gain

How could I have been so blind to not see you

The more that I look the more I find

You've led me to the truth

At times I feel really blind... I know what the truth is, but I still need to accept it. God please help me not to be blind to you and truly lead me to the truth.

Man, I should go to bed, as I must wake up early, early, early tomorrow!