Blogs, Church and Baptism.

Whoa man, my feet hurt. This leads me to believe that I am not meant to spend very, very long periods of time standing without moving that much. And blisters suck. A LOT.
Okay, enough complaining.

Well, there have been some potentially interesting things going on in my life - one of which is the fact that my church is starting this visioning process in hopes of rebuilding the congregation and become more vibrant once again. I have been asked to be in charge of this "progress blog" and if a website ever gets made, that too. This is sort of exciting, for it's doing something that I like to pretend to be good at, which makes me happy as (a) I'm doing something I like (b) I'm helping.
In the last while, I've been wondering if I should stay at St. Edmunds or if I should move on to a different church because to be honest about it, I'm quite fed up with it. However, I believe that I given the message yesterday that I should stay and help. I don't know how I recieved the message, just that I realized that I enjoy talking to the people and that I was asked to do something...
One reason why I've been kind of grumbly about going to church is that I don't really get anything out of it. Ever. I don't think I ever have. So last night I went to centre street and I was really moved with what the guy had to say. After coming back, Ian and I talked about random things that the service made us think about and made the decision (or at least, I did) that I will try to attend centre street more often, but probably won't go out very frequently afterwards, for I want to conserve the money in my poor bank account. Ian also offered to give me these devotional dealies that he once had, which is good, for any of you who heard my talk know how much I struggle with reading the bible and getting stuff out of it. So hopefully that will help me to feel.

I guess as of late, I've made a decision that I truly want to live a more christianly life - you feel so much more satisfied and less empty... last night I talked to Trevor about baptism and confirmation, which was interesting. An idea that has been swimming around in my head for a while is that perhaps I should get re-baptised... (can one even get re-baptised?) for I was baptised when I was a baby, and then got confirmed when I was 12, but I did it because it was "the thing to do" and I think my parents wanted me to get confirmed before we left St. Barnabas, not because I was desiring to confirm my faith in Jesus. For after this time (from ages 12 - 16) I was probably the farthest away from God that I've ever been... Like I admit that at times, I feel quite far away, but I thought during this time that church was for crazy people as it was ridiculously boring, thus I would do anything to get out of having to go to it. Plus, I didn't really believe anything and was extremely uncomfortable about talking about any sort of christian-ness... (still sort of am, but considerably better than I was.) I guess I'll have an opportunity to work on it this TEC weekend. Wow. It's less than two weeks away O_O

I get to volunteer for explore IT this wednesday, which shall be pretty cool!

Well, if any thing else exciting is happening, I have forgotten what it is because of my exciting rant. Plus I think it's almost dinner time!