Oh, life.

Well I have determined that I am living proof of a sinusoidal function. For usually I'm fine, but then I spend about 1/2 hour crying/feeling sorry for myself, and then am kind of bleh and then something else happens or distracts me and I "forget" it. O dear.

I am currently reading "Boundaries in Dating" and in my opinion, according to it, it implies that I'm the kind of person who shouldn't be dating. I'm stuck somewhere in between laughing A LOT and falling into much "sad day"-ness.

I ordered three books off the internet today - I'm excited. Two are by Max Lucado and the other is one about stress management - for I realize that this is an area that I really need to work on, so that I don't feel paralized everytime I'm feeling slightly stressed out. I think part of my problem is that when I'm stressed out I (a) think in absolutes and (b) don't think that I should be stressed out, so try to ignore it instead of saying: " well, I feel stressed out, which is a natural reaction. What can I do help deal and relieve myself of this stress?" Maybe some day.

I met with Elaine for "coffee" today, which was really good and perhaps a little bit of what I needed... for we talked for a while about things that were bothering us and it was good. I think in the last while, I just really, really want to talk to people, but don't really have the courage to do it. Thus, going to do something with a good friend where all you really can do is talk is good. So, if anyone wants to... haha sad day.

Something really exciting has happened - yet I must wait for other things to happen first before it can be more widely known.